"blossombuttercup.....

a place called home...

2009-04-08T22:36:00.000-07:00

i miss home a lot...

a lot of work had taken its toll on me...

im very tired and exhausted...

still i need to face a mojor exam another 2 weeks...

any preparation haven't been done ....

but i rally want to get out of this hectic lifestyle...

i miss home very much....

need to freshen up my spirit....

looking at the beloved faces i known...

cheerful smile, giggling and laughing heartily...

i miss everything about home...

stupid, selfish and stubborn..

2009-03-18T23:25:00.000-07:00

friends, that we might think that we know, can turn into someone else in a blink of eyes...
who know??for these past few years...i realize that..

would you rather be playful or loyal ?

life is still far ahead..we are young but who knows what might happen in the future..

as for me, i think we need to appreciate for what we have now.

i 'm very content with my life now,if ever i could wish for anything...i don't know what else could i possibly wish for...i am really happy for what i have now...

grateful, yes i am grateful..with what i have now...

i have a lot of love , care, appreciation and warmth in me and my surroundings..

living in an unknown and new circle let me review and observe a few people around me...

i can barely say that they somehow does not feel they way i do, they keep searching for what it seems as happiness, but indeed it was a fake one, they're not happy with what they had and keep looking for something missing in their heart.

its hollowness might never been fulfil as we cannot appreciate and of what we have.

I valued what i have now, so much, it could vanish or taken away from me, yet i somehow love and grateful for everything i have now,

in the past, i too have experienced lonely, betrayed, anger , frustration and much more bitter moments,

but as i look deep inside of each moment, it taught me something of what life is all about...

and it has made me who i am now...

wondering of home..

2009-02-03T06:53:00.001-08:00

problem with the college internet wifi...

really tries my patience..
slower than a crawling snail..

i miss home...the connection is far better..
my mom's cooking (even though she
rarely cooks, and often
bring food back home)...
aiman's smirk...nurul's angry's face
and linda's anime character..
that's complete ..
include my dad's kent's smoke..hahahah..
i really miss home!

i miss my boy also..
we watch underworld 3 today..
i don't know how to review about that film
because i havent watched the first and second sequel..
but he said the setting is quite good..
it's gloom and dull hahaha..afterall vamp cant live in sunlight.
i wonder why does vamps always related with werewolf?
the same things goes with twilight...

love story

2009-01-29T08:46:00.001-08:00

Lyrics

2009-01-29T07:30:00.000-08:00

-theres romeo for every juliet-

do you believe that?i do..
searching for partner is not an easy task..
we might go through many difficulties ..
mixture of emotional attachment..
sad..joy..sorrow..tears..quarrel..bliss..comfort..
everything is in mess...

there's one thing ive learn in my social studies
(some that i think i still remembered about)
people will go through different
steps in their relationship..
begin with meeting, dating
and if they are compatible,
marriage might be for them..
not all relationships will
survive through every stages..
there'll be obstacles (of course!)
you will never knew if you will pass each phase...

as for me ..it's been a really long journey..
sometimes it tired me out but still theres
light await for me from a person that could
help me through my hard times..
that is what ive always had up to now..
as famous a phrase of "you complete me."

2009-01-29T07:12:00.000-08:00

-high almighty about
yourselves-

as i am in a holliday mood,

i have so much time on my own,

im not a person who likes to hold

grudges towards other..

hatred is some kind of feeling that

im not so familiar with..

but being with people who are thinks

that they are superior than other

is sucks!

bossy..good for nothing ..

think so good of oneself..childish..bullshit...

sometimes we need to reflect ourselves..

realize who we are..and also take

consideration with other people ..

the world is not existing only for your own greed..

these people really piss me off.

Insight..

2009-01-17T05:28:00.000-08:00

it's not always that i am so into the political issues..
a new era of the 2000.. and as a part of it..for me..
things are moving so fast...
conflicts are worst than ever...
false news can be spread easily apart from the truth
and people still believes them..
it is up to us then to decide which is which..
sometimes things are deceitful..
not all the truth seems to be as true as it seems to be..
it is complicated.

Getting worse...

2009-01-17T04:51:00.000-08:00

The conflict in gaza are geting worse as the israel blatantly attack public hospital...
what the fucking hell do they think they're doing..
all the medicine aid organisation has been paralyzed as the result of the zionist attack.
16 medical centre including the hospital and clinic are badly attacked.

13 medical assistant are dead,

22 more are injured as well as

16 others ambuance destroyed.

Those innocent and unarmed people,
barely able to defend for themselves...
'women, kids, old folks'..
the world just keep eyes shut and
let those bastards do what they want...
as we are enjoying our meals,
people are slaughtered in the gaza..
blood and bodies are everywhere..and no one will ever claim justice for these people...
what are we able to do?1.5 billion muslim but still, no one dares
directly attack and oppose to these justice....

Plight of agony, pain and wretchedness of the palestinians...

2009-01-15T02:21:00.000-08:00

In 19 days.....

1033 Palestinians killed by Israel

including 335 children & 100 women,

a whole lot more than 4850 injured..

that's just roughly stated statistics...who knows how much more people are injured, homeless, losing their family members due to the blood thirst wrench of the Israelis...the Israelis do not have a land for themselves, they invaded others for their own selfish reason.."the gaza" which is where the masjidil aqsa is situated, a sacred place for the muslim.
Masjidil Aqsa is the first Qiblat before Almighty Allah s.w.t. changed it into Baitullah..

the night of Isra' and Mikraj, 27 of Rejab also highlight the journey of our beloved prophet, The Prophet Muhammad s.a.w from Masjidil Haram in Makkah to Masjidil Aqsa in Palestin to Sidratil Muntaha up to the seventh sky.

The Prophet Muhammad s.a.w also arrives to Mustawa and Arasy' (a place where the world is organized) through out the seventh sky and Muhammad s.a.w
went back to Makkah at the same night.

A journey that our prophet experienced has been an extraordinary , incredibly as it is not the same journey of which a normal human being would have been experienced.

Now this sacred place has been invaded by the filthy hands of the Israelis . Human stains and bloods are covered along Gaza as the Israelis massacred innocent people.

Here are brief info of what happen in Gaza.

Israelis has been attack an open area in the Kiryat Shemonadan city eventhough no injuries are reported. The Israelis special forces aided with air forces has been attack further deeper to the gaza city a few hundreds metre from the neighbourhood in South.

Israelis has also bombed Rafah City, which is at the borderline in Mesir, causing thousands of people fled histerically to the roadside. The air forces has attacked along the Mesir border - almost 60 families left their houses which are located a few metres from the border. Nearly 3 weeks The Gaza has been attacked by the Israel as it begins last 27 Disember.

For further reading :

http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2009/1/15/worldupdates/2009-01-15T143605Z_01_NOOTR_RTRMDNC_0_-374528-2&sec=Worldupdates

A place called home!

2008-12-18T07:00:00.000-08:00

its been almost for a month ive been home..

its really good to be home..

all of my siblings are back home..

and u cant imagine how hectic lives could be..

my younger sister and little brother have been fighting playing ps2,

using the net,watching cartoons and almost in everthing they did...

but its okay..it was after all thingsthat i miss whenever im far away from home..

lately i could hardly find times for myself to write, ive been spending a lot of time driving them to mall, buying foods (as i really dont do much of the cooking particularly not my major culinary skills)...those who close would know that :)...anyone up to try my pasta??hahahah it should be delicious..

what i want to be in 10 years time....

2008-10-31T05:47:00.000-07:00

what do i want to be?

its still early to decide....

or its a matter of time ive to decide what i want to do.....

future....what it gonna be.....

hurm.....a world of uncertainty....

A new phase of a future teacher...a teacher-to-be....

2008-10-30T02:01:00.000-07:00

yup that is what im going to be.....
in the exact term...
a Language teacher...
for this semester im taking many paper...
which required teacher to become a teacher..
(hahhaha..i dunno what is that supposed to mean)
i learn how to construct a test paper...
learn about the test cycle.....
teaching of language skills...."reading,writing,listening and speaking"...
how to integrate this skills during the learning events...
and not to forget about Literature...
the big L and the small L...
im still in blank what are the differences between those two L...
before this i was stuck in learning about method in teaching and others teaching principles....
everything is about theories and practice.....
and who dares to say that learning language is as simple as learning ABC...the alphabet...
now.....
its time to change (as it was also my view that its easy)

literature o' literature !!?

2008-10-30T01:25:00.000-07:00

for the past 3 semester...i have been taking literature paper...
its all about poems, short stories, novels and plays...
the class is really bored...
the lectures bored..
n everything send me to boredom...
literature(as from my point if view) is supposed to promote
critical and creative thinking ...
yet something funny happens...
hate to think about literature eventhough it was my minor...
Language is a beautiful thing...
(thats what i thought)...but people make it turns ugly...
whatdaheck!

aidilfitri...enjoyable festive season of all...

2008-09-23T06:41:00.000-07:00

the raya is yet drawn near...
for the last few days.....
i'd feel like a maniac ..going all over kl for shopping...

i'm very happy with this raya...
my boyfriend has been spending a lot of time and money...
hahahah...on me...
my family also has been to my college last two weeks...
visitisng and breaking fast together...
and spend a night at vistana...

at last i can meet them for the first time since the ramadhan begun.
even though the ramadhan is not over yet but
the raya's joy and bliss is what i can feel now...
hopefully the ramadhan this year is much better than before...
may god bless my loving family, my boy, my friends and me myself..

Ramadhan comes again...

2008-08-29T00:30:00.001-07:00

Ramadhan...its coming again....yeyeye!

its a month of fasting...

people fast in the morning until the eve of night...the maghrib....

then at night we will able to perform the tarawikh....

its done only in the ramadhan month...

to wash away sins and wrongdoings we had done

as well asking for forgiveness

from almighty God....

the moment to break fast in veery much a moment i look for....

there will be many food in the ramadhan market...

i really miss breaking fast with my family....

there will be all sort of foods on the table as well as with kueh mueh...

karipap, donat, keria, seri ayu, all sorts of pudding...nenas, gulai hangus, chocolate..

a variety of gulai, curry , lemakmanis , sambal belacan, tempe, budu....

what a dishes....

Food isnt the core of the fasting month...

a night of Lailatul-Qadr....

a night where its better than 1000 month..

Some info of the Lailatul-Qadr......

Qadr means honour and dignity. Lailatul Qadr means the night of honour and dignity. It is this night in which the first Divine Revelation came to the Prophet sallalahu alayhi wasallam, when he was in prayer in the cave of Hira. Since this night enjoys the honour of having the first revelation brought to the Prophet sallalahu alayhi wasallam, it has been named Lailatul Qadr.

This is one of the holiest and most blessed nights, which is likely to occur on one of the odd nights on the last ten days of Ramadhan and most likely to be the 27th. The reward of worship on this night is better than the worship of a thousand months of worship, equivalent to a person's lifetime. So, on this night one should pray nafil namaz, recite the Quran, do Tasbih, Zikr, Duas, etc as much as possible.

This night had already opened its gates of treasures when the angel for the first time had come with the Divine Message in the cave of Hira, but its auspiciousness has continued to be with us permanently. Every year in the month of Ramadhan, this night is given to the Ummah. Muslims engage in prayers, recitation of Quran and praying to Allah, as the Prophet sallalahu alayhi wasallam said: "The person who offered prayers to Allah in the night of Dignity with faith and with hope of reward from Allah, all his past sins have been forgiven." (Bukhaari)

As the rainy season is suitable for farming, similarly for the attainment of nearness to Allah, specific times , specific days and specific nights are most suitable, e.g. the time of Tahajjud prayers, Friday prayers, month of Ramadhan, the Day of Arafah, etc. So also the Night of Power is the most suitable night for attaining nearness to Allah.

In the Hadeeth, we have been asked to seek it in the last ten nights of the month of Ramadhan. Hazrat Aa'ishah radhiyallahu anhaa narrates that the Messenger of Allah sallalahu alayhi wasallam has said, 'Seek the night of Dignity in the odd nights of the last ten days of Ramadhan'.(Bukhaari).

By odd nights, the reference is made to the 21st, 23rd, 25th, 27th, 29th night of the month of Ramadhan. No one night has been fixed so that the yearning to find it may increase and people may spend more nights in worshipping Allah. From this aspect, the importance of `Itikaaf (seclusion) during the last ten days of Ramadhan is clear.

Hope this ramadhan will be a blessing and prayers are accepted by God....

wish all the muslims a success in performing the 3rd rukun of the rukun islam...

may God bless u always...

wassalam....

RejEction....

2008-08-19T10:09:00.000-07:00

how does it reflects on myslef?
what makes people feel rejected?
is it a sign of inferiority?
or ego?

for me...i do afraid of it...
it blow away my confidence...
as there are time when i'm in that situation...
i need to rationalize what im going to do...
there are times i felt rejected,
aahhh..dont be bother about that...

rejection what does that mean?
an interpersonal situation that occurs when
a person or group of people exclude
an individual from a social relationship...
so, being excluded from others..where it brings us...
humiliated,angry,tension?...
but there are times when
being in a crowd does not make us feel accepted...
to be accepted with losing....
identity ? personality? ...
that's the worst of all...
its better to accept whom we are
without trying to be another person...
by learning to accept ourselves
as well overcoming fear of rejection..

we'll be able to know how special we are...
someone special, anything but ordinary...

WaLL-E

2008-08-18T22:10:00.000-07:00

i've always like cartoons...
WaLL-E..
its a very nice movie...
i've watched it on last friday...
a cartoon...suitable for everyone..
funny and thrilling......
becoming more interesting in the middle of the story..
towards the end...
yeah, a new dimension of a robot cartoon...
Walle 'a trash collector robot'..
luckily my boo doesn't sleep while watch the movie..
(he felt aslept whenever the movie's suck) hehehheeh..